Back to square one...??

Loneliness is not something which is new for me... But oflate i feel the pain of it to the core. Its just 4 years that i started mingling with people more often than anytime. I often go out with my office friends these days....may it be the hangouts or the movies and even with such lively gang around, i feel alone these days... !

So what was there in these 4 years which i don't have now which makes me feel so lonely? i had spent almost 20 yrs with limited friends....living within my boundary and rarely going out with friends... Movies! oops i can't think that almost once in a month i am going to theater to watch movies...Hmm... still remember my frnz pulling me with great struggle for a movie (Have to mention this... i went to a theatre after 6 yrs in my final year engg.)...

I would definetely say, i can't get back these 4 years which i have spent with my friends in our appartment in electronic city...It was so lively that we won't mind spending weekends just staying in our rooms... but now almost all are gone...all have gone in different directions, not sure whether we can meet again!...now we meet only in the network world which can excite the professional roadmap but definetely not the personal feelings..

Simply to say 'Guys i miss u' would not suffice... The same place wherein we had spent days together during weekends without doing anything... now, could not kill just the time window between after office hours n bedtime even with TVs n movies! The appartment in which we occupied almost 3 houses has dropped down to 1 now...

Matured mind would always say...it is part and parcel of life but heart doesn't always think like this. It is good to see friends settling down at the same time it hurts when i have to accept that they will no longer be with us.

Left with no choice, have to accept this and have to move on... who knows whether i will even get time to think about all these when time for me comes to settle down... Only time has to say!

As of now, i am back to square one!