Loneliness is not something which is new for me... But oflate i feel the pain of it to the core. Its just 4 years that i started mingling with people more often than anytime. I often go out with my office friends these days....may it be the hangouts or the movies and even with such lively gang around, i feel alone these days... !
So what was there in these 4 years which i don't have now which makes me feel so lonely? i had spent almost 20 yrs with limited friends....living within my boundary and rarely going out with friends... Movies! oops i can't think that almost once in a month i am going to theater to watch movies...Hmm... still remember my frnz pulling me with great struggle for a movie (Have to mention this... i went to a theatre after 6 yrs in my final year engg.)...
I would definetely say, i can't get back these 4 years which i have spent with my friends in our appartment in electronic city...It was so lively that we won't mind spending weekends just staying in our rooms... but now almost all are gone...all have gone in different directions, not sure whether we can meet again!...now we meet only in the network world which can excite the professional roadmap but definetely not the personal feelings..
Simply to say 'Guys i miss u' would not suffice... The same place wherein we had spent days together during weekends without doing anything... now, could not kill just the time window between after office hours n bedtime even with TVs n movies! The appartment in which we occupied almost 3 houses has dropped down to 1 now...
Matured mind would always say...it is part and parcel of life but heart doesn't always think like this. It is good to see friends settling down at the same time it hurts when i have to accept that they will no longer be with us.
Left with no choice, have to accept this and have to move on... who knows whether i will even get time to think about all these when time for me comes to settle down... Only time has to say!
As of now, i am back to square one!
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ohh boy....when i read ur post, it struck me what has happened to me...i suddenly realize I dont have any girl friends....not that i have a lot of friends in guys too....but those whom i speak with every now n then, are all guys....i lost touch with almost every girl who had been in my life...i dont know why..may be coz i expect others to buzz me and only guys care to do that....i really dont know....or may be i already lost touch with girls and am going to loose the guys....is it coz of aging??? man...if yes, its a matter of shame, me being a girl.. :-))
may be i wud have felt the same way as you, if i had been in this state for long, but the commitment of my life to a guy came in the right time and it took my interests away...
as u said, u'll have no time to think about urself too, once u r committed to a girl...i would suggest you to enjoy your solitude, coz u wudnt get that in the future....there might come an instance in life wherein u'll feel "god..pls take everyone around me away for a while, i need my space".....u'll not get this space then....
or if u feel you are not that kind who will njoy this space, then i tell you, its high time you choose ur partner....i feel all ur nags boil down to the fact that ur time has come to become a scapegoat...hehehehe...
bullies apart, do ping me when u feel like speaking with someone..if am in green, i shall surely respond you...
Anu.. ur comments r longer than my post :p
Anyways i am not suprised to see one more misinterpretation of my blog...there r already many in office ;)
Anyways... Definetely i am more concerned about losing company of certain friends (BTW it may be guy r gal..they r still friends :) )and not worried about settling down at all.
That settling down context just came in when i wanted to say about the time i invest in thinking abot all these :)
good post dude!!! its something i always felt too. But then i have to agree with the person above, at some point ull need space...so start thinking in that direction!!
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